Just a couple of months ago my husband was experiencing more and more loss of hearing from his right ear. Obviously it was concerning from the beginning, but by the time he finally made a doctor’s appointment to get it checked, our conversations were literally like two old people yelling at each other. It was downright frightening how we had begun to acclimate to a whole different volume.
Thankfully, the doctor was able to wash them, and removed huge balls of wax out of both ears. She said in her 30 years of practice, she’d never seen such huge balls come out of someone’s ears.
In defense of my husband’s personal hygiene, he showers almost twice as often as I do. I would say an average of at least once a day. So I wasn’t sure what could cause so much build up! The doctor said there wasn’t really anything we could do to prevent it, except for rinsing them with a special contraption or having them checked regularly.
Have you had your ears checked recently?
For years as a young girl, my greatest question about God was about whether or not He speaks to us, and if He does, how does He speak to us? These questions stemmed from a great desire to make all the right choices and to know which fork in the road I should take. Then I went through a season of doubting his shepherd like care and really stopped obsessing over those questions. It was a relief in some ways because I stopped worrying so much about the fact I wasn’t hearing anything. The verse, “my sheep know my voice” had always left me feeling a little perturbed because I wasn’t really sure I knew what his voice sounded like. But in that season, I stopped even trying to listen for it.
Coming out of that valley, being washed with a new love for His written word, I once again became convinced that I truly was his little sheep and that He is most definitely a loving shepherd. At that point in time I realized shepherds don’t usually stop to discuss every move with their little flock. The little flock just follows. They trust Him to know the way! That was such a comforting realization for me. It’s not always some supernatural revelation we receive as guidance, but just His hand in ours, leading the way.
Since then however I think I’ve gotten a little too comfortable. Following the Shepherd and seeking the face of God require action. God doesn’t relish our blind obedience or mindless submission. So I’m cleaning out my ears after all this time, and praying that He would speak to me with His still small voice. That that still small voice would break through the clashing vibrations of a busy distracted life, ( which has become a normal volume for me, sadly ) and that His words would change me. I’m NOT reverting to the days of begging God for a banner across the sky with a huge arrow painted on it so that I may know which way to go. I know that HE KNOWS, so I’m praying just to know Him. I want to be able to trust Him to reveal the things I need to know and conceal the things I don’t need to know. Hopefully through regular “checkups” and turning down the volume of life, I’ll get to the point where I don’t have to strain my ears quite so much just to hear His voice.
I hope you can also take comfort that not only does He know the way, but He knows YOU. The best challenge for 2017 I can think of, is to turn down the music, turn off the news, get your ears cleaned, and just do whatever it takes to hear His voice above the roar of life. John 10:3-4
The sheep hear his voice, and he calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. When he has brought out all his own, he goes before them, and the sheep follow him, for they know his voice…